Emerging

I haven’t been to this blog in a while, because blogging sometimes seems a lot like work.  And, I like my entries on this blog to address some political issue.  But most of my blogging this past while has been personal, and not visible to the public.

Now, though, I find that in some ways, my personal is becoming political.  I’m bowing out of one life and starting another.  As I think about my future life, I realize that it’s not a new job or occupation I’m seeking, or a new/old place, but a community and a way of life that fit a philosophy.

Maybe this sounds simplistic, and yes, lots of people do it, but the kind of life I want is linked to other people, and to place.  Everything that is important to me now is related to having a community, friends, a family.  I wonder, after having spent so many years single and hopping around whenever I wanted, if the idea of being connected even seems stifling to some.  To me, it sounds heavenly.  I don’t want to be far away, I don’t want to be isolated, I don’t want to be “must be a self starter and able to work independently.”  I want friends, family, community, a team.

Not only that, but I want to step away from consumerism and capitalism.  I’ve posted here and there about this, perhaps not on this blog.  But it’s time to actually be a part of it now.  I want to live my life, rather than buying ways to be distracted from it.  I want to grow some of my own food and support a local food movement.  I want to see how long I can go without stepping into a mall (easy) and without buying something off Amazon.com (harder).

Before I took my current post, I was making some headway, but being posted overseas with access to a DPO means that although we feel that we don’t have shopping opportunities locally, our federal government ensures that we don’t stray too far from spending our dollars in the US and concentrating on the myriad things we can ship in to a country to feel like we don’t actually live there.

Now, I’d like to live where I’m living – or where I’m moving.

And I want to create.

I’ve been reading and thinking and mulling over these ideas and decisions for a long time, and I’ve talked with some friends in depth.  I wonder why I’m blogging about it now?  Maybe it’s a way to create accountability, record my intentions, by making a declaration.  So here it is, me declaring myself, declaring my emergence into something different, and better.

The time for languishing in front of a computer monitor is over.  I’m going to create.  I’m going to be a part of something.  I’m going to become who I am.

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